I am Being Selfish

Thats right, me! Why you ask? Ive been having a day. Ive been talking about my sister alot today--for those that dont know, she was killed in a car accident when she was 16 and I was 7--and then my mom gave me a picture of my grandparents that had hung in their house. Well this got me thinking about all the stuff I wish I could tell my sister, and the things in life I would be sharing with her. And boy do I feel jipped! And if you dont have a sister, you just cant understand. Growing up she took care of me, protected me from what was going on in my family at the time. And I miss her. I know my thoughts are selfish for wanting her here when God had plans for her, but dag on it, I WANT A SISTER!!