Yes, I Know

I haven't done what I said I was going to. That's because I have been hashing out my thoughts and feelings on Facebook. Which has become quite comical. People started looking forward to my weekly sound offs! After a really good conversation with my dad, I realized that my life needed to change. I walked away from something that I never thought I would. I learned I needed to stop taking the bs in my life as well as my family. And I also learned that some people just needed to go from my life. And I have been doing just that.

As of today more big changes are happening. Or are going to. Well, both. Still praying for guidance on that situation. So stay tuned. And as the guys at the firehouse say " Shits about to get real up in here"

Im Sorry, Can You Push That Button Again?

I had a blog all thought out! I was going to write about something that happened on Friday. But our adventure last night has changed that! So here goes!

Took John to the ER last night because his head and neck were hurting. He had a pimple he had picked at, so I knew it was infected and needed to be drained. When we got there and he was triaged, his blood pressure was dangersouly high. Like stroke zone high. So they started an iv, gave him antiboitics and some blood pressure medicine. They said the abcess on his head was infected, and that the infection could go to his brain. Then his labs came back and said his kidneys were showing some damage. We now have to do some follow ups. And major lifestyle changes. I know it will be a bumpy road, but hopefully we get it all worked out!

I Discovered a New Thing

Its called turn of my cell phone and don't check my emails at night!! And not to check my email on weekends. And its WONDERFUL!!!!!!!! Nobody told me you could do this. After 5 pm, I don't check emails and then around 9, I put my cell on silent. Its been so great not to have to worry about checking and getting back to people. Though it has irritated a few people because they are used to me getting back right away. Boo hoo!! I need me time,family time and time to decompress at night. I cant always be bothered with firehouse stuff at all hours but apparently their are a few people that think I should be. So everyone will just learn how to deal!

Changes

We have been so busy this last month. Promotions, recitals, shows and a vacation to New York. In the midst of all this I have done alot of thinking. I have seen that I'm not happy with myself. I feel that I have no time for myself nor do I do anything for myself. So I have decided that I am staying with my cut back shift for the medic unit and that come August, I will not run any one particular shift. That is to help me have more time with transitioning the kids back to school and to help Tina with her decision to go back to cheerleading. I also am working it for me to go back to the gym. I need some me time and the gym sounds like a great place to do it. They have excellent child care so Sara will get to see some fresh faces. I also would like to start scrapbooking again. I haven't scrapbooked since last October. That is mine own little world where I can get lost. Hopefully some of this will help with the stress and anxiety. I cant go through life being crabby all the time!

Changes

I know I need to update on a few things. And I will. When I get back from vacation! I know, vacation and me dont go together. But they are this week! The girls and I are off to New York to see my best friend from high school, Jessica. And I cant wait. Its much needed! And when I come back, there shall be a new me! So stand by for updates and changes!