Bad Day

So yesterday was very trying. I have been sick with a cold, Adam has had a few set backs, a little boy who's story I have been following for awhile died, we realized that it might be the time to put Hunter down. Oh and a little money problem. And John was a little bit on the mean side. He was frustrated at work and got upset with me. So last night I cried for about an hour. I just had enough. Luckily enough I have great friends who are there for me!! God knows where I would be with out them. I am so thankful that I have them in my life. For the last few months they have been there for me through so much! I feel very blessed.

Grrrrrrr

Yes, grrrrrrr!! I growled! Why? In this last week my mother has done some things that are unspeakable. Things that I dont want to post. Things that I dont want to forgive her for doing. I know thats not the Christian thing to do. Lets just say that I could forgive, but wont forget. It hurts very much to think of the things that she has done. For now, I have decided it would be best if my family does not have contact with her. Eric and Tina know why, Sara of course doesnt. Im just waiting for Sara to ask to go over there. Its going to break my heart. Family should NOT be like this. It upsets me so much that these things have happened. I have been praying about it and nothing comes to me other then what I have already decided. I pray that this also opens her eyes.

Adam Update

Adam is doing much better. He had a blood transfusion. He is not off two of the meds, his O2 stats are in the 90's and hes been maintaining his blood pressure. But keep praying, he still has a long road ahead.

On Sunday I got to go visit him. I so wanted to pick him up and hug him. It was very hard to see this precious little boy hooked up to so many machines. I stood next to his bed for awhile and held his hand and talked to him. Him mom even took are picture so she can make an album to show him all the people that came to see him. Hopefully he continues on the good road and gets out of the hospital.

Prayers Needed

A friends little boy who was diagnosed with Leukemia on December 24, 2009 is currently fighting for his life. He started having breathing problems last night and is currently on a ventilator. He's only four years old. Please keep him and his family in your thoughts and prayers.

I have what??

Well as much as I wanted to start the year off on a happy positive note, that didnt happen. For the most part.... Monday when I went to the doctors for my lab results to be gone over, I heard what I didnt want to hear. I have diabetes. For now I am being kept of meds. She said with diet and exercise it could stay that way. I pray that it does. Luckily I have great friends who are going to be there for me for my support team. I know that the road ahead is going to be long and bumpy but I can do this. I HAVE to do this.

On another note, my dad is no longer cancer free. :( A small spot was found on his gum. The doctors are going to take it off when he gets the reconstruction surgery on his jaw. Hopefully this is it!!

I know I havent posted my goals for the year yet. I had to do some shifting because of the diagnoses and the mini remolding of the house. So hopefully by this weekend I will have them up!